shades

Springtime

I can't wait for spring.

Now it's all i can think about.

youtoo

hey grandma

Hey Grandama!

Thank you for the letters. It’s always a treat to hear about what’s going on in Iowa. Canada sounds like it was nice. Hopefully you had some time to relax and enjoyed the down time.  Over here finals are beginning. I've been studying nonstop, but hopefully I’ll get some good scores. My school goes on the quarter schedule. This means we have a fall, winter and spring quarter, each 10 weeks long. The classes are fast pace, but we only take 3 classes at a time so it’s not too bad. This summer I’m planning on getting a job in town, maybe working at the library or the board walk, and taking a few extra classes up here in Santa Cruz. When I’m not in class, I take a lot of photos with my camera around campus. The school has a darkroom where I can develop my own photos whenever I want. The darkroom is small, but few people have access to it, so it’s never crowded. Also, I might be going to France for a few weeks at the end of summer. Adam’s father has extra flying miles and offered to take care of the ticket costs for me and him to go and visit his family of there. It’s still not set in stone, but wouldn't that be fun?! Sheila and Nicky are frequently on my mind. I can’t imagine what is going through Nicky’s head. I only hope she holds tight to her calm nature and everything works out for the best. Lord knows Sheila’s going to need all the luck and love in the world.

Anywho, its back to studying for me.

Finals don’t wait for anyone.

I love you Grandma and all of my wackydoodle family for that matter.

Hannah <3

Developer

This will continue as it always does. Till one of us either breaks the rules and speaks or you read the signals as something false and walks away.

I know the end I'm looking for.
What are you searching for.

The tides

Online shopping make me sad.
Developing photos makes me happy.
Facebook makes me depressed.
Climbing stares is satisfying.
Eating too much makes me feel ugly.
Tea calms and soothes me.
Drinking too much makes me unhappy.
Spending time with friends is nice.

Time for a change.
Let's start this.

Quote of the night

I'm so enhanced.

Crossing over

Walked onto the bridge 18

Walked off one year older.

On my 19th lap around the sun.

Blinders

The time has come for me to put on my horse eye blinders and stop thinking.

Time for the gym and studying.

The answer

I know.
I know.
I know.
but.......
I don't.
This is torture.
My stomach is twisting, my fingers tremor.
The pumping of my heart pounds.
Shrinking back into my head, I scream.
I yell, I cry out in agony and frustration.
In the last hour I have gone from high to low.
Now, as I lay in bed, I ache.
I ache for honesty.
I ache for transparency.
I ache for time to fast forward.
I ache for the answers.