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I've been feeling pretty shitty lately.

changing

It's just so frustrating to feel yourself changing
changing away from him
knowing he too is changing in the opposite direction
and you don't have the energy
will strength motivation
to grab him and hold on
to pull him close again
you are just so tired and weak from it all

being right

even though you were right,
you had it all wrong.
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wedding photos

looking at wedding photos makes me happy.

I want to be in love again.

I want to be in love again. I miss the warm coat which comes with being in love. The one that helps you forget everything going on around you. The warm coat which stops the shivers from the cold, that is the love I miss. I want to be in love again. When love was with me my eyes would glimmer. Each time I'd blink I'd see something new and enticing. Love focused my sight on the beautiful and whole. The lens of love can not be explained to those who have not seen it. It must be experienced. I want to be in love again. I miss the electricity which charged the air. Step by step my body was pulled to my lover's side. By an electric force we would meet and our skins would merge. Something so simple as holding hands would shock my whole body, my toes would tingle, my hairs would stand up. I miss the love, but I don't miss you.