maybe not

maybe it's because i'm afraid he'll break my heart.
maybe it's because i'm afraid i'll break his heart.
maybe it's because i'm afraid.
maybe this is just the way it is. 
maybe this is just the way it's always going to be.
maybe.
maybe not.
i'll just have to wait and see.

Really good.

it's been about 3 months now. 

the weird thing is...
it feels good.
not perfect, but good. 
really good.